I just feel like everything I do pisses someone off or fucks me in the end.
I always do something wrong, even though I'm trying to do the right things.
I stay out of college to think about my career instead of jumping in:
I'm living a miserable life of being a maid, baby sitter, and doing whatever makes my dad not angry. I can't do a single thing about it because I just can't enroll in college right now or move out.
I try not to make him angry and do things for him:
They just piss him off more 90 percent of the time.
I try to make small talk to my sister about how I was really hungry that day for some reason:
Dad takes it as I'm disrespecting him and think that there's no food in the house when he worked hard on the budget to get some in there. Spends 70 dollars we really didn't have to get food in the house. From how mad he sounded when he was yelling at me earlier,
I really want to live alone and make my own decisions right now.
Do things at my own pace so I don't get verbally abused for not doing something in their timely manner rather than mine:
I can't drive, don't have a job, and have no way of acquiring funds to do so without going through them.
I haven't felt welcome at home for a while now
I really haven't. For a lot more reasons than just him yelling at me.
I'm just so scared of doing or saying anything right now. Everything I've tried to do lately I fuck up. I try to do the right fucking thing and it usually ends up with Dad angry and yelling and me hurt.
I don't even know why I try to do anything anymore, I just fuck it all up.
Watching: Roosterteeth Letsplays of GTA to try and cheer up.